It's very normal to think about abstract realisations when you let your mind go wherever it wants. If you want to express these deep, personal as well as universal emotions, write it down like the author, and let your voice be heard.
I wanted to write this poem on self-hatred because it has been more than once I faced something very similar to it.
I tried writing poetry. Hope you like it. I have written many of them long ago, but never shared majority of them just because I wasn't confident and didn't have a platform before.